There are many people out there whose minds may be conflicted. Their minds may be broken, nervous, escaping, or in absolutely any other way not understanding itself.
Among many other ways to unite the mind with itself, there is one recently discovered opportunity that hasn’t been much researched by medical sources. It is strongly related to the Western definition of a tulpa; but it is my profound belief that most of the modern practitioners of it are completely botching it, with hitherto negative consequences for that person, since they don’t understand what is really going on nor what they’re playing around with.
However, if it is done correctly, it can have an absolutely gigantic positive effect for you. If you need a “Too long Didn’t read” preview of the guide, it’s basically “Make some roleplay characters to get to know yourself better.”
There are a lot of nuances you’ll need to deal with, and there are going to be a lot of things that you’ll be uncertain about during the process. Therefore the parts of the guide will be written in much closer detail further below!
Warning: You must always keep in mind that the exact purpose of this guide’s therapeutic and healthful self-discoveries, is to use your new knowledge about yourself to improve your existing life and the existing world around you! If you try to use this guide to escape from your existing life, and to try to run away from your problems instead of actually solving them, you’re fucked! Doing that can lead to Dissociative Identity Disorder (more about that in Part 6), or it can reinforce your feelings of not belonging to real life so hard, that you’ll feel permanently and pretty painfully lost. Therians and therian-curious people should be especially beware against any temptations to do this wrong.
(Various links to songs on the streaming service Deezer have been mixed into the article, as somewhat fun and random aside-notes.)
Step 1: How to create a character’s mindset!
This one is fairly easy to perform, but it does require you to have at least somewhat of a personal imagination.
How do YOU tend to think about characters and what they’re doing? Do you play in roleplays? Are you fond of daydreaming? Do you write a lot of fictional text stories? Do you like to use alternate identities online?
Are you able to think of absolutely ANY character that you’ve thought about while doing any of these (and which in the case of established characters, that are not 100.0% bound to canon or someone else’s fanon), and what (s)he would do in any sort of new situation? Then that is the only prerequisite you’ll need in order to do this step!
So now that you know how you conceive new characters, you can set about creating a new one. Depending on your reason to use this guide, you can create him/her with one or more of the following things in mind (Preferably at least two):
- The traits you envision for it, are ones that stand very close to your heart.
- Explicitly writing it as someone who’d want to follow you around in your life.
- Writing someone, that acts in the ways that you dearly want to be and feel like.
- Writing it with the set purpose to have it perform certain goals in your life.
As you’re creating this character, you may find that several things can happen. If the character was a sufficiently personal desire that you were passionate about, you can find yourself to be overcome with such feelings as that you’re suddenly behaving like it, or that you have a small new presence inside or around your mind.
This is fairly normal, but they can be hefty new feelings to deal with during the first few days. Tickling sensations inside your head are also frequent during this early phase, and you should make sure to know when to rest, since the influx of new experiences can completely wear you out within a few hours if you have bad luck.
Step 2: How to deal with the new character’s problems!
Now this is where it gets interesting. There is a high chance that you began to use this guide because you felt oddly conflicted and anxious inside you. If you wrote the character correctly in Step 1, it should be drawing a lot of inspiration from your dreams, abilities, and imaginary possibilities.
Well, guess what. The character IS going to represent a serious issue that has been hid away in your mind, and that you have been repressing for several years.
Now this is the point where you can not afford to screw this up, or else you can end up facing heavy mental penalties! The key rule is to listen to what it has to say, what it wants to do, what it wants to do to you, what is on its mind, and how it’s behaving. If you try to actively combat against what it really is, you’re fucked!
If it’s hellbent on doing something, you need to be willing to do whatever it wants to do. Regardless of what it is that it wants to do! If it instead is super-sad, you need to soothe it and to assure it that everything will be fine.
They can represent a lot of issues, ones that they’re trying to tell you about, and which are inherent parts of your mind (although they’ve previously been hid away from your conciousness). If it turns out that your problem is of an emotional nature (love, cuteness, bad memories, extreme anger, sadness, ˢᵉˣ, hopelessness, material dreams, not belonging anywhere), then you should be able to reel in a very high benefit from this process. And also, you’ve learned something new about yourself and about what you are!
At least as long as you don’t try to deny the character or the problem. If you begin to deny them, you’re fucked.
I also do not recommend dramatically changing the character’s synopsis or fundamental views after it has begun to think its own thoughts, since it will make it very confused, and unsure of what it should really do.
Step 3: Get to know the character, and interact with it!
So, now that you’ve finally calmed their initial problematic feelings, you can get to begin to know them. Ideally, it should be able to figure out how to do things with only a minimal interference from your concious self. Hopefully it still has a reason to stick around with you!
Try to do various things in your life to figure what it’s stimulated by. Find out which things that causes it to activate, to go into hyperdrive, to talk to you, and to be with you. Depending from person to person, it may not want to really be around you if it feels that it’s bored out or irrelevant, especially in the first few weeks.
Be aware that there are many ways you can interact with it in. It can be an “external” force that you can talk with, hug, or dance with. But it can also be an internal force! Once it feels that it knows how to really deal with general things, you can allow it access to your entire body. Now you’ll suddenly behave like it, complete with all the things that make it happy: If it likes to be touched, its sense perceptions will go absolutely wild when you’re touched! For a specific example, even something like gliding your fingers around on your skin could give you crazy and super-exciting shivers. At least if that is something that it really enjoys.
Similar things could happen when you’re listening to music, eating food, or hugging a couch pillow. At its best it’s like ASMR times two. It’s nothing to be scared about, especially not once you get to experience it.
It is not bound to only be either internal or external. It will also interact in more diffuse and secretive ways depending on your mood; or it may even be sleeping if it feels tired, in the sense that it is temporarily difficult to be thinking about it.
Step 4: How to mold the characters and yourself… at a cost!
If you have got this far, you may be aware that it’s a part of you, and that it forms a part of your subconcious moods and functionalities. So… what would happen if you were to try to change that part of you in some way, into something that it wasn’t before?
If the character is showing unsatisfactory traits (Being over-excited, yelling, lashing out), you can teach it not to do that, preferably by talking to it about the situation, and to teach it what it can do instead.
For example, if your character is very angry, you could teach it how to not be so angry, thus also changing what you would do if you were angered! Sure, you could still feel an empty hopelessness for several hours, but you would not longer be such aggressive as you were before.
Shortsightedness can be the end of you, however, if you try to teach it something that is not all that much necessary for it to learn. Say that you feel way too warm and want to learn to be able to wear a T-shirt for an entire day without sweating it out. You teach/tell/change your character to make you feel comfortable at warmer temperatures. And it works. Now you can wear a formal T-shirt all day long! However, it could turn out to work by that your body temperature would drop noticeably, meaning you’d freeze more often and easily catch colds. And that is not really a good thing.
This can have immensely positive effects for you, but there will very often be some side-effects arising from it too, to varying degrees. Think of it like the wishes in Shimmer and Shine, or in Fairly Odd Parents.
This can either be a life-blessing, or the 3rd-most dangerous thing in this guide. You wouldn’t be fucked, but you could end up with unexplainable physical (or mental) issues. You’re playing with power. A lot of power.
Step 5: Possible physical concerns that may arise at this point.
There are some obstacles that can occur, especially in the first few weeks of the process, that can be an iron roadblock that can completely halt the process.
You need to get sufficient rest and a fair bit of nutrition (though seldom more than usual), or you could begin to develop symptoms of a cold that can stick around for several days. And when you have that cold, interacting with the character in almost any way could make you feel bad or could sap your energy really, really fast. If you have particularly bad luck, the character could even flatout leave you because it doesn’t feel stimulated or useful anymore, since you are unable to do things with it. If you liked to be with the character, however, the character will very likely return to you in the days after the cold has disappeared.
And of course, do you feel that the character has been useful and has become a great part of your life? It is very possible to create a character that feels like a serious botherance to be with, for instance if you created it with only a set of goals and for no emotional reasons. If it doesn’t really feel like a part of you, it’ll probably be gone in two or three days as you let it loose to go somewhere else. If you somehow managed to create that as your first character, you may need to think about Step 1 a bit better, and to think about what you want to be (and for it to be) on an emotional basis too.
The character will be more sensitive to bad feelings than what you are. If you begin to feel that it’s getting uncomfortable, such as freezing or being repulsed by stomach aches, you’ll need to resolve those issues immediately. It could also be sensing that both it and you are getting a sick, several hours before you do. In those regards it works very well as an Early Warning System for your own well-being!
The medicinations that you’re taking may have a small effect on the process, but I can confirm that it’s not a make-or-break. Some emotions can be slightly harder to come across if you’re taking meds for mental problems, but you should not try to reduce your medication intake. And especially not before you feel completely certain that you’ve seen a very consistent positive mood improvement from the process, which can take at least a month!
Step 6: Various vital details to remember about the character!
You’ll notice after a while that you and it share the same mind. You are able to borrow traits, behaviours and thoughts from it, but it can get the same things from you! Don’t be scared if it suddenly begins to treat your childhood memories as its own, or begins to use previously uncharacteristic words when it’s talking with you.
You should also be perfectly aware that at this stage in the process, the character will NOT be visible to your eyes. You’ll be able to feel its presence, and to feel where it is and what it does. Sort-of like a ghost, except that it’s behaving very normally (by your standards) and very un-ghost-like! You may need to let it use your mouth to word things out, if you have problems thinking about what it’s saying to you.
It is a very important lesson to learn, that all of its traits, are also your traits. If it loves pistache ice cream, then you love pistache ice cream. If it’s scared by falling leaves, then that means that you’re scared of falling leaves, even if you did not know about it before. You and it are completely intertwined, sharing one vast mind and one body; and this entire months-long process is meant as a self-awakening to learn everything about yourself!
They’ll NEVER show up if you sincerely don’t want them to do so. This is NOT like Kirby Buckets or Out of Jimmy’s Head, and they cannot cause you any genuine problems if you (and it) knows that it is really not to your benefit!
Try your very best to not meld yourself into the character full-time, but instead for you and it to learn a lot from each other! If you blow this hard enough, you could become very strongly conflicted about what your personality really is, which could in the worst of cases lead to Dissociative Identity Disorder. And that’s not to mention that you would only turn into a less fleshed-out version of yourself at that, regardless of how amazing the character is for you.
There is a high possibility that one of your characters can decide to just get a new shape on a whim. This is a signal that you now have some new thoughts in mind that you’re thinking very strongly about, or that it believes that a new shape would fit it better or would help it perform its goals better.
Step 7: How to create more characters!
There are two scenarios that can lead to you suddenly getting more characters to have to take care of.
- You begin to realize that the first character may not have been able to bring out absolutely everything in you. You feel improved, but you do not yet feel perfect, and you feel that an extra character would be of help with covering more of your worries and issues (alongside the first one).
- Your worries and problems have been so extremely conflicting to you, that they begin to show up in character shapes as soon as you begin to think in-depth about them again after you’ve learned how to create any characters at all. (This can even happen as early as partway through Step 3.)
The second character is going to be very different from the first one, with it too having problems that need to be solved by you and with you. You’ll very likely also find that it likes new things and that the two of them can even talk to each other. So here’s a great opportunity to learn even more things about yourself!
Step 8: When it begins to escalate!
So, now you have two characters, and both of them have been successes and have become integral parts of your personal life. But there are still so many things you’re feeling… and where on Earth did that new vague character in your mind suddenly come from?
This is the point when you’re beginning to “split up” into many different characters. Now your mind has been set to create new characters for all the things you’re feeling, and they can be for quite a few different things!
For the most part this is just a way for your mind to cope with its many feelings, now that it has a way to do so. And in most cases you’ll still be able to “be yourself”, as a better version of yourself that know so incredibly much more about what you feel about things.
You will either feel that you are supported and held up by them as pillars; or possibly (but rarely) that they are your equals and that you feel like a member of an intensely close-knit group that consists of you and your characters.
Depending on your emotional needs and physical strength, they can all be around you constantly at the same time, or they could only show up (often just 1 or 2 at a time) when they feel that you need them to be with you.
But many of the characters may be somewhat underdeveloped, if they don’t get a lot of attention and stimulation. And that leads us to what you can do to really figure out what they like and enjoy!
Step ~9: How to conduct interviews with your character(s)!
This one is fairly simple. In fact it’s so simple that its profound effects are hard to imagine and remember.
Sit down in a room. Imagine your character, regardless of whether it’s currently being external or internal or not. Ask it some vital questions. For instance, exactly why is it so angry/loud/excited? Is it feeling bad for something that happened to it? Why is it feeling sad? How does it feel after something big happened to it (possibly in its backstory)?
And then, let it speak. Let it use your mouth to speak if it wants to. If it feels bad for something, it’s probably going to get very tearful once it (and you!) begin to think and talk about it. Now you know what it is that makes it feel so bad, and how you two can try to resolve it.
Be aware that the character may need to have been around in your life for at least two days before you attempt this (unless it has an urgent issue that needs immediate attention from you), so that it can be given a chance to think more about what it is and what it wants to do in life. When a character is created, they’re like teenagers. They don’t really know what to do or why they’re feeling all the things they do. If it gets some days (or a week) to stick around with you, it will gain more perspective to know more about itself too, just like how you’re learning more about yourself from it.
This is where the guide is stopping for the time being, since I’m not certain what happens after Step 9 yet. Chances are that your life has been completely revolutionized nonetheless, that you feel more like a complete you, and that your worries are solved (or at least identified). Once you were fractioned, but now you are whole.